The scales are on the rise 143.6 yesterday was my highest since coming down from loosing my pregnancy weight with Ben years ago.
I normall could care less about weight but I've been in and out of the doctors office lately that it's right there staring at me, plus my clothes not fitting is an obvious sign I'm gaining weight.
I feel drastic in that I want to change this but I also realize my body is obviously doing something right now, not too sure what, but I still have to fuel it. As I tried to do a water fast recently, I didn't last more than a day and that's not the life for me personally, where I'm at.
I'm intrigued by the simplicity of fasts or cleanses and want to try to do one of sorts. Still haven't heard from Beachbody if they'll fund me to have 4-5 shakes a day. Right now I buy the 30 day supply, but that's one shake a day for roughly $100. So while it'd be nice to have 4-5 Shakeology's, I don't think I can.
The weight gain besides annoying for vein reasons bothers me because I don't like that I don't know what's going on. In my spirit, I sense God saying, okay Becky, do you REALLY trust me? I want to pass this test! I have to pass this test! I choose to pass this test!!! I don't want to give in anymore to the lies that keep me trapped in my own fears.
I am a new creation in Christ, every moment, we can call on the Lord, so why don't we? Why do we suffer alone, in silence, waiting for change to happen? We must be active in this change. God is not going to do it for us. He will most certainly help us and strengthen us, but we must be open and willing to be changed before any change can take place, and it must be in His time. So that requires faith and patience on our part! :) Join with me in trusting and being patient with ourselves and where God has us today.