Happy Father's Day 2013

This year we're helping Daddy make a purchase he probably wouldn't otherwise make. He works so hard but rarely does anything for himself, so this Father's Day I knew I wanted to help him by getting a gift certificate to Kelly Co. so that he can get juuuuuust the right metal detector that he wants. He has an okay one now but I know you get what you pay for and Kelly Co has some awesome brands and a couple in particular I have overheard my husband talking about! So in lieu of the actual gift, my Uncle Dan (an avid metal detecting man himself) helped me come up with the awesome idea to have a treasure hunt. So I got the boys involved and we hid a few pieces of paper with coins attached so come Father's Day we can head out to our yard  (with the old metal detector) and find the treasure!!! We also made a treasure map!  Luckily my husband isn't a daily reader of my blog -- so please if you read this --no spilling the beans to him ahead of time!!

William actually drew the number 100, which little did he know was perfect to use for this since we bought Daddy the gift cert for Kelly Co!!! 

Here is Will's 100!! 

Our (clue) treasure legend for Daddy's treasures throughout the yard 

Let the digging and burying begin!

We put each of the 4 pieces of paper, one a piece in a plastic Baggie (I recommend Presto brand -- LOVE those bags!!!!) to keep them from dirt and water and worms and bugs and such until we dig them up again in another week or so! 

Diggin deep!!!! 

I love watching them work together!!! Makes mama proud! 

Last hole!!

Putting in our coin baggie.

Patting it down, so Daddy will never know! Shhhhhhhh!!!!!!! It's a secret!! (I hope they can keep it!)

Aaannnd we can't dig in the dirt without searching & collecting  a few worms too!!!

This is going to be a great Father's Day adventure!! What are you doing this year for Father's Day? Do you have any special memories as a parent or with your dad? Do share! :) 

You lost whaaaa. You lost that how??

Saturday June 8, 2013

The scales are on the rise 143.6 yesterday was my highest since coming down from loosing my pregnancy weight with Ben years ago. 

I normall could care less about weight but I've been in and out of the doctors office lately that it's right there staring at me, plus my clothes not fitting is an obvious sign I'm gaining weight. 

I feel drastic in that I want to change this but I also realize my body is obviously doing something right now, not too sure what, but I still have to fuel it. As I tried to do a water fast recently, I didn't last more than a day and that's not the life for me personally, where I'm at. 

I'm intrigued by the simplicity of fasts or cleanses and want to try to do one of sorts. Still haven't heard from Beachbody if they'll fund me to have 4-5 shakes a day. Right now I buy the 30 day supply, but that's one shake a day for roughly $100. So while it'd be nice to have 4-5 Shakeology's, I don't think I can.

The weight gain besides annoying for vein reasons bothers me because I don't like that I don't know what's going on. In my spirit, I sense God saying, okay Becky, do you REALLY trust me? I want to pass this test! I have to pass this test! I choose to pass this test!!! I don't want to give in anymore to the lies that keep me trapped in my own fears.

I am a new creation in Christ, every moment, we can call on the Lord, so why don't we? Why do we suffer alone, in silence, waiting for change to happen? We must be active in this change. God is not going to do it for us. He will most certainly help us and strengthen us, but we must be open and willing to be changed before any change can take place, and it must be in His time. So that requires faith and patience on our part! :) Join with me in trusting and being patient with ourselves and where God has us today. 

Struggles

I have been battling a few different things from personal issues to issues with others and I keep trying to fix things myself or I'll give it it God most times but then take it back (usually at the end of the day when my will to fight myself is weakest). I then go find some source of outside release and not give it to God as I know I need to in order to overcome this test of struggling and wrestling with myself. 

Rising health problems that won't relent leave me feeling frustrated and completely out of touch with my body. Desipite working out and eating healthy I'm gaining weight, my bloating has continued, and I have pelvic pain. Doctors are all baffled by my lab reports and symptoms and can't explain them. That leaves me feeling really out of control. I am thankful to have this blog to let my feelings out into cyber space. I have to think someone, somewhere is or has gone through the same thing. 

I feel trapped inside my body & I don't know how to make it work anymore.